Lost Myself

 Lost Myself 

I lost myself,

In my own world.

Where my thoughts

Are murders.

With unspoken words.

Where there’s a war

Going on

Between my body

And my soul.

Where I try to scream and shout

But there’s no way out. 

I'm a mess right now,

My heart is in two places

Half is back at home

The other's off and racing.

I lost myself that night 

When I couldn't recognise me.

But it was far too late

I feel the burden now.

It's weighing down my soul

And I can't catch my breath

Because these demons follow...

Many asked me once

What is the scariest part?

According to me, I answered;

The scariest part, 

Wouldn't be the feeling of loneliness

Or darkness that fills me 

Neither the looming pain 

Of emptiness...

The scariest part,

Would be the realization

That I have lost myself

Completely;

And can’t recognize myself.

Sinking in as I lay awake 

Till 3 am.

Because I have lost the ability to sleep,

And I can’t even cry,

Because I don’t know why...

    Written By  - Nayanika Pal

Artwork - Sayani Karmakar. 

Date - 23rd March, 2021.