Heartache

 Heartache 

Gradually I feel myself breaking. 

My knees feel powerless; it appears I'm shaking. 

My arms are drained and my legs feel numb. 

My brain is blank and I need to run. 

Stress is building, tears falling. 

My desolate evenings I lay 

Gazing at these clear dividers. 

Miserable I lay down without any unfortunate obligation 

Keeping me from the beasts inside. 

Awful flares and dreams down the channel. 

The bad dreams I have, present me the most agony. 

Wanting for reality, however just discovering lies. 

The mysteries I attempt to keep behind,

My dull earthy coloured eyes. 

My tears will not stop, I can't continue to battle. 

I'm losing all expectation of truly finding. 

I don't have a clue who I am; with everything going on, 

I've lost myself in this middle of a group. 

My heart can't take this ceaseless torment, 

With each word they say I feel like they channel. 

My perishing, pulsating heart that has nothing to acquire. 

The gazes I get like I disgrace them so terrible, 

However, truly I simply needed to attempt, 

Attempt and battle for what I had. 

Presently here I am, with this forlorn broken soul, 

Anticipating my confidence in this totally dark opening.

Written By -Nayanika Pal

Artwork - Priyangi Ghosal. 

Date - 30th June, 2021.